Today I am gonna to write my xanga again, but my feeling wasn't good and feeling sad. I would like to have an anwer from myself. " Who am I ? " " Am I  a good person or horrible person? " I really don't understand. Is it right to help students, fds or concentrate on doing things that you look for? what is the purpose for helping people...how to face people around me. These question always come beside me and I have no idea to get these answers out...

               One of my close fd said I did some change, I changed to be horrible and change to be another person, I really think I am not, but I am sure that these few weeks, I wasn't happy, feeling much pressure and have some emotion. Sometimes, I dun want to feel sad or angry, when you see things they did to you, then you may not able to think this. They also said, not try to think youself is the best and top.......as I knew I am not, I really want to reach to top...because......the is the circle of life, if we want to live and work for it..we have to work and not try to give up things..to do well..........

            I think I have to feel regard for making people feeling sad .,.......I am sorry to all of them